The pain and sadness of loss

I feel unutterably sad today.  The grief I’m feeling at Fiona’s death is so much more than I could ever have imagined. Although my heartache is primarily caused by thinking of the pain that Bill and Alex, (and Nerea, who had grown close to Fiona) are feeling, selfishly, I can’t help reliving our last caching adventure together; the laughter we shared with Alex and Nerea, our hysteria at the sheer ludicrousness of rummaging among tree roots, and her overwhelming joy at finding a travel bug.  That her infectious enthusiasm has gone for ever seems impossible and so very, very unfair!